Same 'ol same 'ol...

Its the start of a new week/day....
Upon waking, I climb into the shower (while the kiddies are sleeping) feeling the coolness of the water awaken my senses as I ready myself for a dental appointment..  
I feel the joy at having awakened to another day, yet the sadness of knowing what my day will consist of...the same 'ol routine...
After having had my filling, I wait at the bus stop, enjoying the cool breeze,  a sure sign that fall is on its way...I decide to go visit a friend before going home, feeling the need for adult companionship...my days are soo lonely and empty right now.
I guess I'm feeling all-consumed at the prospect of motherhood, something I've known my whole life, even as a child; being mom's little helper! 
I NEED more, I feel soo unappreciated, as though my existence is one of  convenience, just here breathing and not living...to better benefit everyone else's life!
I know there are other moms out there that must feel this " loss- of -self."....the need to break free and "fly"....to feel truly alive and appreciated, not just needed!